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what's wrong with me ?!!!!!!!
recently ..it became hard to understand my self...
4 the 1st time ..to be soo confused ....!!!
i really don't understand myself  like i used to do before ..
i wish to be myself sooon ...so i can understand what's going on ?!!
life is getting serious ...and more responsibilities ...or
it's because i have alot to do ....things got mixed ....

ya Allah i neeed you ...i need your help... show me the right way ...Ameen

i neeeeeeeeed you :'(

kinda feeling bad....i miss typing & writing ...college is becoming harder & harder ..that i can't even have a time to another thing not even to type...although i have a deep desire for writing & writing
i'm very sick :(...i can't smell things...i have caught cold since last saturday...now i'm better ...i was at the worst on monday ...it was like Collapsing !!..
sorry me sorry my head sorry my body ..sorry i was stupid ..and i didn't sleep well...i didn't care for myself ...i didin't sleep well..i'm sorry i'm getting weaker ...that's my fault....
sometimes i feel it hard to keep on moving & to do this all work all over my head...kinda hate college ..hate the transportation .....i'm very sorry me ...i was a reason for my health for being weak ...and getting sick ...now it will take time to heal ...but the problem that there is no chance to relax :((... i don't want to collapse ..i really wish to help myself .... i really hate this college