you've got mail ..:)

this movie ...i can say ...it's one of my Favourite the whole time ...
that no matter how many times i watch it ...i like it ..& i watch it over & over again...
Kathlin kely  & Jo Fox.... it's a good movie...
shows important thing...people when they see us on reality they might get wrong thought about us ...but if they know the real you ..then it'll be obvious that u should never judge someone without knowing them very well :) ...

i liked it when he knew her ...and he tried to be her friend ...sooooo nice...^_^

التجديد وصللللل ^_^

هذه اخر التعديلات التى وصلت اليها حاليا ..
الامر مرهق لتظبيط كل شئ ..
مقبول حتى الان ..
التعديل القادم ع العيد بقى ..
معبره جدا الخلفية ..
Flying flying high in the sky ..the sky of my head..^_^

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..!!

note to myself#15 : shhhhhhh shut up for a moment u r such annoying person ...
go sleep or finish the book u started ,,,

in fact....Life......... thiis what i wanted to say :-\

seriously i forgot what i was really going to say .....but the most important that what life do to us ...
complication in everything...a day passed & you've wasted all...
sometimes things are completely can't be understood...feeling confused about what is right & what is wrong ....excuse me people ...do u even know the difference ??!!!??
i know sometimes it seem very hard & harder than what we can ever think...
can't sleep well ..things come & go ...many ideas ..head is working 24\7 ....we never rest
of the daily journey of life...
is there is a thing in this life really deserve !!!!!...
yes yes ...sometimes we are just feeling down ....need a lift...need something to inspire us ...something to make u believe in whatever you do ....something encouraging...something  give us the chance to be the best of our selves....most days that what we need ...we need Faith..& to believe....and the high spirit ...& a white heart...then this how we'll live happily no matter what...
but the problem ....as people always make things difficult & complicated.... we must suffer..
is there is someone here in your life ready to Give u a lift everyday ..just to make u feel better ...& to continue your Journey of this life....i believe everyone has another half ...so that this journey will be more interesting ....because we aren't going to live in the same way forever...need change,,
better than getting bored of this life and ur daily routine  ...i confess that i'm really sometimes very boring ....just feel don;t wanna talk ...sometimes i become  rude.....this just happen ..even if i was defending something i believe in ...or i was in a bad mood...or whatever ...people will never understand the reason of doing this ...it'll be the same judgment n matter what is the reason is ...!!?? that's people ...that's life...
I SAY that No Matter What Never judge a person just over one situation or 2 or whatever...
never say something about someone u haven't known...!!...u have to live with them...and watch most of the events that can happpen in life with them.....
in the end no one will ever understand u 100%...there is always a misunderstanding ..that's why people fight & have problems ...can't we just live simple !!!!!!!!
seriously ...i hate judging based on  shallow things....come on people ...looks never matter...the most important is the souuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuul ...any simple change & growing up looks will change...soul never..pure & white soul never changes...:-|
stupidity ...we all have the moment of stupidity ..sometimes it be something crazy & we  like it ...sometimes we hate ourselves & wish if we weren't here ...the most difficult part is
to get judged over such stupidity situations ...!!!...then if i'm unlucky person ..then there may be one person have seen this whole stupidity actions ...OMG...i wish i was never there ..
the art of watching someone in every second their moves their actions...where they go & what  they do ..actually tiring ... some people like it ...some don't.....
well in the end 2011 till now...is good...really i knew many things..somehow my life can't stop getting into a drama...all actions in it is just a drama ...that's is like a movie which i'm not sure if i watched it or not....thanks 2011 i've known a hidden parts in my personality ...and even some weakness....we all have that ...don't we!?
better than explaining ..the year started with the most important action and i like it very much ..i wished to join but i wasn't allowed to get out of home ..& my father was out cairo ...but i enjoyed it a lot...since then my emotions and i think i've changed a lot...i'm not that girl who was just smile so that no one asks her what's wrong..i'm not that girl who was deeply sad...nearly wishing to die.. much sadness inside & deep her heart...she wasn't believe in any change can happen ..with those people...since she heard about Tunis she felt good ..maybe some fears...but i believe that tomorrow is better than today ... more than 100% believe...it started i was in exams ...btw the only subject i got a good mark at ..was the subject after 25th jan. i was angry the whole time ...but i changed more...i even try to search for sadness inside my heart but i can't find it * Alhamdulilah *...هذا من فضل ربى
yeah that it ...i'm happy because i'm happy..:)...yeah that was the smallest term ever but the most work was done on it ....i was horribly busy..^_^..now i miss this days...
well i seem very strong person...but i'm not ...but this is only the way that u can hide the fears ...& to protect strong...it's tiring to keep acting strong the whole time....sometimes need a break !!..
sometimes to cry ...i think this is better solution espcially after just keep piling up all what annoyed u , hurt u ..then after crying ..it's a gr8 feeling ..or even scream ...it's good too.:)
i'm very good the best type to hide my emotions ...sometimes it's good sometimes not...
we aren't perfect...as long we are a live we keep learning ..from friends..people we just met..people we don't know... people we just heard them talking ...but we learn a new thing every single second of our life ...we do ..the most important is to figure out what u learn .^_^
* u never know how strong u are ..until being strong is the only choice u have *
2011 ...1st time to live  more than a week . without mom & dad ..they traveled with my elder sister....it just me and rest of my brothers & sisters....it was hard...being  alone and u've to do the whole thing ...it's tiring...
in the last month of my life...i learn something about how the choice of a person that u'll live with is soooo important ...yeah ..it's not that easy....this is the hardest decision u can ever made in ur life...not just for men ..also for Girls...
there are dreams...many many many things is needed ..not
materialistic... it's more...
it will take time talking about it...but all i knew... there is somethings in my hope my dreams ..my imaginations ...i can't just leave them ...well i have no intentions to work or even to be a famous person ....it's a very simple thing ..that people may say about it stupid ...well i don't care ..but this really what make me happy ...this little stupid things i call my dreams & imaginations...*it's all a personality thing*
in the end it's already written who  we  are going to be with ..^_^...but still we can wish a few details about personality ...some how is to fit urs by acceptable percentage...
i'm tired ....i wanna sleep * yawn*...
this whole talks is nonsense ...the most suitable comment over what i wrote..is
* what the hell are u talking a bout !!!!!!!!!!!!!???????? *...
i've gone Crazy ^_^ ..!!!..
empty my mind for tomorrow... mixed thoughts mixed feelings.....be better
Tomorrow will always be better than today & yesterday =D

ohhhh my head !!?

i'm not feeling good ....i can't think well...i can't even Read abook...i can't understand the pain in my head ...i slept and it didn't even work...it's really make me feel tired ...
i can't even think of something ...i'll just ruin everything ...Please my head ...come back to ur normal ...i hate this ...and i want u to be okay ...i'm sorry if i was careless and made u that way....but i'll do everything better ffrom now on ...
i became stupid ...and stupid me ..doing stupid things without thinking b4 doing it ....
the most thing i hate ...is that many people now are upset with me ....i hate this ...sorry people my mind isn't in a good state this days,,,i'm feeeling baaad ....deeply sad ....i can't even understand my self any more ....
so for any one i made them angry or sad...i'm sorry ..forgive me please...
in the end we aren't sure to live till tomorrow ...
i'm feeling really really bad ...the worst ever...

First Time

i like this song & it's my mood for now & the whole day :)

i like it also ..because i wanted to learn Piano :)..

another video <3

http://youtu.be/DGdZDnSKUc4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGdZDnSKUc4&feature=related

4th july ...the Big busy day on my life :D

well no matter how tired i was during the whole day ...but i didn't feel bad or annoyed ..
-starting my day ..by making breakfast for my brother & my sister..
-doing some laundry :)..
- feed my birds..^_^
-staying on kitchen ^_^...i entered the kitchen and didn't left it till along time
-سلقت اللحمة
-  * بحب الارقام والحروف *عملت شوربة
-عملت بسلة بالجزر بالدمعة
then i finished at 4...then i gone to read a book...after i finished it
i went back to kitchen ,,to complete my work...* i think if they weren't fasting today ..they weren't going to eat hahahahah*..
then i
- cooked the rice ..
- fried some potates
.then i went up staires
to feed my birds again ..
then at last i'm having a free time on 6:30 ,,,i spend it on reading a book ....
then  it was el maghreb prayer ...time to eat...
seriously ...i didn't felt anything ....but as today it was my first time to make meat ^_^...but the rest i've done it alot b4 ^_^..
in the End it tasted awesome ^_^ ..and i keep typing this on my little note ..
for my mother advices ^_^
nice & good :D

it's amazing !!

i've finished reading a book on 1:03:36 ...it was 116 page...well if i said that my speed is to read a100 page on 1 hour ...then that will be good...i can read more & enjoy more,,,
currently i'm reading .................... it's a secret ...i'll tell when i finish it ...hope to finish it on tomorrow ..and there is more than 15 book on my list .i mean on my desk ..i wanna read them so i can change their place ...because my desk have a lot of books on it ^_^...

oooooooooooooooooooooh really there are many things i wish to do ..:)...it seem i started to work very well
now i need to sleep early & wake up early ...^_^...

the memory of 5th july 2010

كل ما اتذكره عن هذا اليوم من عام تقريبا ..
استيقظت مبكرا كالعادة ..لم اكمل اسبوعا على انتهاء امتحانات نهاية العام الدراسى
وكنت قد بدأت التدريب الصيفى البارحة فقط ..
يوم واحد جعلنى اشعر بضيق وعدم راحة ..
يمكن لان المشوار والمكان كان بعيد تماما ..
ولانى كنت متعبة لم اكن اريد الذهاب ..
اريد احد ان يقول لى لا تذهبىىىىى
لماذا لا يقول لى احد اى شئ
اعرف هذا الاحساس عندما لا يكون لى رغبة بشئ
افعل الشئ ببطء شديييد
نعم لا يوجد دافع يحركنى ..
احساس رخم
* اصبح مملة فى بعض الاوقات اعنى معظم الاوقات*
اتحرك ببطء من هنا لهنا لارتدى ملابسى
اذا بفجأة ............
لقد شعرت بوخزة فى قدمى
كأن شئ حاد دخل بها
كل هذا حدث فى اقل من ثانية ..
لاننى لم انتبه للوخزة واستمريت حتى وضعت قدمى ع الارض
اثناء وضعى لقدمى ع الارض ..شعرت بالاختراق هذا الشئ ذات السن
كنت خائفة ان انظر الى اسفل قدمى اخاف من الصدمة ..
تسألت هل الامر مخيف ؟؟!!؟؟
هل لن استطيع اخراج هذا الشئ من قدمى؟؟
وكعادة اى انسان كثير التساؤل استبقت الاحداث كثيرا
قطعت هذه التساؤلات
لم اتحرك
جلست ع الارض فى نفس مكانى
ونظرت ....
اذا به دبوس ابرة *اللى بيتثبت به الايشارب* فى قدمى .. واكثر من نصفه بقليل داخل قدمى
قلقت ..لم افكر فى ماذا افعل ..
هل اصرخ واطلب المساعدة من احد؟؟
ام ان اساعد نفسى بدون ان يعرف احد!!!
الساعة قد اصبحت ال7 والنصف
نظرا لفكرى انا لا احب ان اطلب مساعدة احد
ولا اريد ان يوبخنى احد
لذلك قلت سأساعد نفسى ..
ولن اهتم بما يحدث
فهذا لن يقتلنى
ففكرت ان اسحب الدبوس برفق حتى يخرج ...
* كل هذا حدث فى 5 دقايق ولم يلحظنى احد حتى اختى كانت بجانبى ترتدى ملابسها تخرج الى العمل *
كنت اشعر انى فى عالم وحدى
كل تفكيرى هو
كيف اخرج هذا الدبوس اللعين !!
سحبت برفق ...ظللت اسحب
لماذا لا ينتهى هذا الدبوس!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!؟؟
استغفر الله العظيم
اشعر وكأنى فى مهمة مستحيلة ^_^
عندما وجدت انى اسحب واسحب ولكن الدبوس لا ينتهى ..
فقررت ان اسحبه مرة واحدة كى لا اشعر بالالم ..وانتهى من هذا الحدث الذى لا يساعدنى ع الاطلاق فى اى شئ
بل سيجعل من مهمتى فى الايام القادمة اصعب
سحبته مرة واحدة ....
فاذا بمنظر لم اره فى حياتى من قبل
اخر جزء خرج من قدمى انطلقت وراؤه نافورة من الدم لحظيا وتوقفت ..
نظرت الى قدمى يوجد خط متتواصل من الدم ..
لا ادرى ماذا افعل
الان لا يمكن اخفاء هذه الجريمة ^_^...
فقمت وانا رافعة قدمى ..اتقدم للامام خطوة وارجع للخلف خطوة
واذا بى اترك دم خلفى فى كل مكان ..
لا انكر انى شعرت بالالم
فكلتا اختاى رأتا ما حدث .. فجلبت القطن والمطهر سريعا ..وسألنونى ما حدث
على الرغم ان هذا الامر لم يستغرق الا دقائق قليلة ..
الا انه مر بى كساعة ..
غريب بعد الشئ...
ولكن اعتبرتها حجة لافلت من الذهاب الى التدريب ..
لكنهم قالوا لى ..بلاش دلع والبسى عشان تخرجى..
نعم  فى النهاية كان مؤلما لكن ليس الما كبيرا بهذا القدر الذى اوضحته
احيانا شعرت بعدم القدرة ع الضغط ع قدمى ..
ولكنى تحركت وخرجت وذهبت الى التدريب
لم يكن من الممكن ان اتجنب هذا اليوم والا اذهبه بجمبع الاحوال ..
لان يوجد غياب ويجب ان اكون حاضرة ..بالاضافة لانى اعلم انى لن اذهب نهاية الاسبوع
للتدريب لانى كنت ذاهبة لقضاء العطلة الصيفية 3 ايام فى بورسعيد
* الذى اعتبرها من اسوأ العطلات التى قضيتها *
اعلم انه ليس بالشئ الجميل الذى نتذكره
اتذكره فقط لانه من الاحداث النادرة التى حدثت لى ..
تجربة غريبة ..
فى النهاية لم تساعدنى ^_^ هههههههههههه ...

That Dream :)

when i remembered earlier that day.. maybe i was tired & sick ...but that Dream came to me when i slept made me happy somehow & i didn't feel the pain...maybe it just a dream & will never come true .. but at least it made me happy and Feel better ...thank u my dream ..:')

today ..:)

today ..i got my 1st kingston USB .4GB..and it's just mineeeeeeee minee...so it's the 1st time to have my own ....i'm happy :)... it's strange why i haven't thought about having one before !!!!!?
i really like this ^_^

i'm leaving my Blog !!!

i'm going to disappear for a time my blog....don't know how long ??!!...
it may be a long time ...maybe not...i'm not sure
in the mean time ...i don't feel i want to write anything ..even if i want to write
i won't write ...
i haven't followed my list for things to be done ..

so i must go away for a time...think about better system &  better organizing ^_^...
as u know ...i don't log in in Ramadan... but i'll do my best to come at least once b4 Ramadan...

salaam

Adios ...!

!!! what is happening >>>??!!

it's 28 june ....and i kinda tired have a headache & wanna sleep ...
i may not be able to think about anything now..
what is happening now ...in my country ..
there is a hidden hand behind all of this ...
it's  a nice thing that i understand what i mean ...
Revolution is coming back ....:)...

اانا اوفلاين .. اذا انا مشغولة ^_^

استعد حاليا للاقلاع ومغادرة عالم الفرااااااغ
...

كالعادة اخطط دائما ولا افعل شيئا
هو انا بس فالحة فى التفكير والتخطيط
فين العمل بقى يختى انتى ؟؟!!

المهم عشان شوية وهتنرفز عليكى ..
البلوج دى تقريبا تحتاج الى تعديل شامل اخر تانى .. طبعا هظبطلك حاجات كده
وتبقى تمام ...

المهم المخططات ...اقصد الخطط للى هعمله فى الاجازة (عشان محدش يفهم غلطط) وطبعا وبالنسبة لكل شئ

بالنسبة للقراءة :
- ابتدى بمكتبة الشعراوى
- اشترك فى مكتبة .........
- التركيز ع الكتب الدينية - التاريخية - السياسية
مش عارفة بس حاسه بجهل رهيييييييييب :(
بالنسبة للشغل اليدوي :
- اخلص الكوفيتين اللى بقالهم 5000000000 سنة عشان هولع فيهم قريب لو معملتهمش
- اشتغل كوفيه واحدة لصديقتى من ايام الممدرسة الابتدائية وواحدة لصديقتى من الكلية
-اخلص الحاجات اللى كنت عايزة اعملها مخصوص لجروبى العزيز .. الشغل اللى هفاجأهم بيه فىبداية السنة السنة الجديدة
ان شاء الله
اشياء اخرى :
- عمل كتيب نصائح ماما
- تظبيط الممدونة وبعض الاشياء عليها
- عمل كتيب اخر لبعض المواضيع الاخرى
- عمل كتيب لافضل ما قرأت
- عايزة اتفرج ع انمى او فيلم هندى ^_^ ..احتاج لجرعة فعلا هههههه 
الحاجات اللى نفسى اتعلمها او اعرفها او اخدها ككورس :
- اسعافات الاولية
-كورس التفصيل من اوله لاخرة
- الكتابة بالخط العربى
-تعلم لغات يابانى - كورى - تركى
وحديثا افكر فى الروسى ^_^
-الاشتراك فى النادى والتسجيل فى لعبة........ا

اممم على العموم ده كل اللى دماغى حاليا ...يارب بس اعمل ربعهم عشان انا زهقت من انى فكر ومعملمش حاجة
وطبعا بعد اللى كتبته ده ..استريحت
فهنام فهنسى فمش هعمل حاجة ..
فمرحبا بالضياع من اول وجديد ...

بس انا لسه عندى امل ^_^ ...

Girl was born 8th september...:D

well ..1st time feeling to describe myself ^_^... well this is the best i can say ...

i'm a very loud person ....loud voice & annoying too ^_^..
well i love simple things...although i like creativity ..but with a simple style..^_^
i adore Crazy Ideas =D ...i love learning languages & doing creative things...especially works that we do by hands ..amazaing !!
well i don't care what people say =D ...whatever they say ...she is crazy or stupid or whatever ....
i don't careeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ...as long i'm doing nothing wrong ...and it's something i like ...^_^
one thing i want to say to that people ( at least i'm doing what i really want to do & what i love to do & what makes me happy ..not sitting back ..afraid of what others will think ...this is just Giving up  رضا الناس غاية لا تدرك) so i'm not gonna waste time just to please others ...^_^...the most importance is to please Allah ...:).
i love just to be ME ...live simple....simplify everything around coz really nothing is that Difficult ...just think well ...and everything will be okaaaaaaaaaaaaay ....
may people around me see that my thoughts totally strange and different ( but not wrong )
in the end this is how i'm ...just like me the way i'm ...never try to change me ... in the end
i'm not a bad person ..=)....but i'm alittle active person ^_^...
btw ..i like watching Anime =D..( i don't care if people say it's a childish behavior)  .i love Reading & writing ..i love photography.. .there are many things i wish to learn ...^_^....i'm just a Girl was born 8th September
there is just a few things in my mind..
- طالما مش بعمل حاجة تغضب ربنا وربنا معايا
فانا مش قلقانه ولا هبقى قلقانة .. لان ربنا معايا دائما
هيحمينى وهيختارلى الافضل دائما ..
انا اؤمن بهذا دائما ^_^

from now on :D

well recently ..i decided to write the posts that i was going to write a long time ago but i didn't...so i'll try my best to type them and type the new ones too ^_^...

new look :((

it didn't become the way i  wanted and the header pic. not adjusted :-\ ...
well i'll make this  temporally  for the blog for now !!...

salaaaaaaaaaaaam my blog

salaaam old style ...^_^... as we in summer i've thought of something to fit this season ...so it'll be kinda strange ...but   i like to witness changes ^_^...
i like this ^_^

New Look for my sweeeeeeet blog ^_^

thinking of a new style for my blog.... tomorrow in shaa Allah ...it will be totally new & different :)..
new season ...new life...new blog ....better version of myself !!!....
nice word this ..go go go ...fighting & working this will be my style this summer
this will be my 2nd change for my Blog :D

i'm not going to get Engaged ....it's a relief :D

....ya Allah ..u know more than i know...u know better than anyone & everyone ...
i believe you will always make the right choice for me....
the last period i was in a bad mood ...being sooo stupid to understand signs....
i couldn't translate it ...but because i wondered alot & thought alot ....i become tired ..
and don't know what to do ...i tried my best to be okay with that ...but it didn't work...
it just happen ...when i reminded myself ...that everything is in your hand....and i believe ,,that you will make the best choice for me ...i reminded my self of believing in this ...so i made a decision that i must stop thinking & being tired for nothing ...when Allah is with me & will always choose the best for me ....i stopped thinking ....and i let it go ....i didn't care what happen ....
then this happened ...
when i heard the news ...i didn't get upset ...i just felt happy..with no reason ...
i left everything to Allah ...so i know & believe that i'll never get lost....:D

well the best about this ...is that i'm feeling sooooooo gooood to do many & many things i wanted too ....i can feeeeeeeeeel & smell freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedomm ....it's a gift really... don't be in a rush to leave it ..:)...as a single really u can doooooooo more....it's a wonderful thing ....enjoy every moment in single life..:)..
the most thing that i hated of me if getting engaged ...is that many things i wished to do ...i wasn't going to be able to do ...:)....now i can ....i think i'm not going to miss the chance this time ....
i realized the importance of being single...i'm not going to miss a moment ....so i won't regret this later :)...
i think another reason for this not to work out ..is that many & many people were sad for that ...& sad for losing their chance ....!! :O...
whatever ...i feeeeeeeel goooooooooood & happy ...because that's Allah choice for me ....i'm happyyyyyyy ....and good :D...i think now it's the time ..to write my list for this summer activityyy ..yahhhhhhhoooooooooo ....i'm looking forward ^_^

the most thing i hate about exams !?!

well really it makes me angry ...when people lie about exams ....
can't u just say one good word better than everything & better than explaining  that u couldn't do anything...and will get the worst degree ....when if we look at those who were saying this ...
they are the people who got the highest degrees ...!!!...
for the misunderstanding ...it's not about how much they score ...
it's about the crying & lying about failing in this exam ...this is what really annoys me ...
i never cried over an exam ...i always smile & say Alhamdulilah ,,
isn't that enough to people to say ..better than talking much with words it's all about wrong feelings ..it's a childish behavior ...no one will envy u btw if u even said the truth and u did well...
i always say i did well Alhamdulilah ,,,people think that i'm studying much and this whole thing..
but really i don't ..if u look closely at my degrees u'll find that i score just acceptable degrees ..

well i don't look for getting a grade or this things ( i don't care & that not my interest at all )...all what i care about is to learn ..(.but not to annoy myself )..& to.have much fun ...and study little ....not just studying studying .....
just think out of the box ...
no one really cares about what u did in ur exam ?!!...everyone cares about themselves

1 last thing i want to make it clear to others ...
not because i leave the exam early ..that mean i finished the whole exam ...!!
i don't know from where this idea got to others mind...
the real reason to leave early ..
is that i have finished typing all what i know ...
i really hate staying much time in the exams court ...really annoyes me
needing for fresh air & that i really finished what i know ...
this is all what i can write & think about ..
i just make this decision when i really know this is my end for this exam ..& i'm not going to add anymore things..... & i think this is enough for me :)...