one of the best things today ..i didn't log in FB today ..i feel better ..very much :)
1st time not to feel like i wanna write something or share something
just enjoy real life ..that wt i did ..i slept till 10 o'clock
i can feel him in the air ..but i was the best at ignoring this
i haven't eaten till 10:30 pm , it's the 1st time ..
i know i'm the best at acting the role of the strongest person ever ..this makes me feel tired most days // hiding the weakness inside u ...maybe being that strong cold person
although i want to cry soooo much ..but still i can hold this tears ..
although i feel a big gap & hole in my heart ....i still can look happy & smile
i don't want anyone to worry about me ..the problem is i was sooo sad on sunday ,, then 2 of my friends were sad today ..i felt pain ..this may be because of me ..i kept laughing & trying to do anything to make them feel better ..but no use..
it's even harder to try to do something for others u can't even do to urself ...
i'm not hiding or running ..i'm just wanna rest & make things better ..for my life that become
a mess ..a real mess... and bad luck continue ..i don't complain ..at least it leads me to things i should find out & know ..& that's a good thing :)
i decided that i have to be stronger ..& ignore all what annoy me & people too ..it's hard
but i must do it ..
i know no one cares anyway ..& no one will ever ..even i hid my self for a week ..no one will notice ..no one will care ..and mostly of who will ..will not show it for real ..that's why i always hate to hide ..coz i hate that fact & i'm sure that no one cares :)
this time i'm sooo tired ..my soul is tired ..very much ...that i can't take manythings anymore ..i don't want anyone to ask about me or notice ..coz if i find out ..i'll feel bad & go back earlier than i should back ...and this time i shouldn't do this..i should get my fully recover & the longer rest i need ..till everything heals :)
i must focus on the other things i wanna do in my last year ..i want everything perfect ..:)
waiting to get my laptop , waiting to see what will go on for my sister , many actions in my life
the most important is to never regret anything in this life ..as nothing deserve really !
and all what happens in people life is the best for their sake ..& that's a good thing :)
i still have a dream inside my heart my soul my head .. i wanted all long ..for my whole life ..
but stil no matter that i'm sure this not happening for real ..in this life .. i still can't give it up
i still want to , wish for having kinda of fairytale :)
one of things annoy me ..that in this generation there isn't too many men that really men like we girls want ..i mean now they all idiots ..and mostly not grown up ..and till when we have to wait till they grow up .. !! idiots idiots idiots ..not even thinking & not even trying
wanting the best while they are not ...that is stupidity ..really make me feel sick
anyway ..i still have the hope of better tomorrow ..holding the best for us ..the best we can ever live ..better than we can ever imagine ..i just simply Believe :) ..everything will be okay :)
1st time not to feel like i wanna write something or share something
just enjoy real life ..that wt i did ..i slept till 10 o'clock
i can feel him in the air ..but i was the best at ignoring this
i haven't eaten till 10:30 pm , it's the 1st time ..
i know i'm the best at acting the role of the strongest person ever ..this makes me feel tired most days // hiding the weakness inside u ...maybe being that strong cold person
although i want to cry soooo much ..but still i can hold this tears ..
although i feel a big gap & hole in my heart ....i still can look happy & smile
i don't want anyone to worry about me ..the problem is i was sooo sad on sunday ,, then 2 of my friends were sad today ..i felt pain ..this may be because of me ..i kept laughing & trying to do anything to make them feel better ..but no use..
it's even harder to try to do something for others u can't even do to urself ...
i'm not hiding or running ..i'm just wanna rest & make things better ..for my life that become
a mess ..a real mess... and bad luck continue ..i don't complain ..at least it leads me to things i should find out & know ..& that's a good thing :)
i decided that i have to be stronger ..& ignore all what annoy me & people too ..it's hard
but i must do it ..
i know no one cares anyway ..& no one will ever ..even i hid my self for a week ..no one will notice ..no one will care ..and mostly of who will ..will not show it for real ..that's why i always hate to hide ..coz i hate that fact & i'm sure that no one cares :)
this time i'm sooo tired ..my soul is tired ..very much ...that i can't take manythings anymore ..i don't want anyone to ask about me or notice ..coz if i find out ..i'll feel bad & go back earlier than i should back ...and this time i shouldn't do this..i should get my fully recover & the longer rest i need ..till everything heals :)
i must focus on the other things i wanna do in my last year ..i want everything perfect ..:)
waiting to get my laptop , waiting to see what will go on for my sister , many actions in my life
the most important is to never regret anything in this life ..as nothing deserve really !
and all what happens in people life is the best for their sake ..& that's a good thing :)
i still have a dream inside my heart my soul my head .. i wanted all long ..for my whole life ..
but stil no matter that i'm sure this not happening for real ..in this life .. i still can't give it up
i still want to , wish for having kinda of fairytale :)
one of things annoy me ..that in this generation there isn't too many men that really men like we girls want ..i mean now they all idiots ..and mostly not grown up ..and till when we have to wait till they grow up .. !! idiots idiots idiots ..not even thinking & not even trying
wanting the best while they are not ...that is stupidity ..really make me feel sick
anyway ..i still have the hope of better tomorrow ..holding the best for us ..the best we can ever live ..better than we can ever imagine ..i just simply Believe :) ..everything will be okay :)
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