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i hate the fact that i'm officially engaged and don't feel like it
i'm engaged but really i'm living like single :D
msh bel m3na aw el t3reef el mot3rf 3lih 3nd a3'lb el nas
ok i know i'm different
bs msh lazem fe de yeb2a wala ka2ny engaged wala 7ga ka2n hawa
i don't feel any difference 3n lama kont single
de 7aga 7elwa el sara7a we mori7a bs msh lel drga de
lazem yb2a fe tawazon 
so i've decided to
take a very dangerous steps to change many things
as i can't take it anymore -_-
and if we really going to get married by next August
he really have to do  a lot ...
i don't like that kind of staff ...and the one who wants me to do all & everything
okay i may do all this stuff ..but as astranger that i just recently met
at least u have to make me fall for u ..& then i'll be really
the woman of your dreams :\
but tell who !! since it's just thoughts ..
so today ..i'll say manythings ..i hope i don't forget ..
really every minute is precious ..i don't want to waste time
enough   ...i've to get  the feel *100% comfort* so i can feel excited about getting married
is this hard !! ..da 2a2l 7ga lazma 3ashn ntqdm lelamam
ya rab ostor