....tired ..

enha Al masha3er el morheqa ..na3m :|
i feel soo annoyed ..mom left Egypt today ..she went to my sister
i feel bad ..i hate goodbyes at airports ..
i will be busy ..don\t know wt to do ..!!?
it's college ..home ..country !!!!!
 i have a lot to do ...and a lot i wish to do ..but i can't think well
i feel like i want to talk to someone ..maybe i'm missing my best friend ..she is sick
and i'm totally feeling alone :\\..maybe this is the reason ... anyway being busy won't make me feel anything
anyway ..i'm used to this stuff & i'm strong to fight it ..
i really want to study ..but nothing is helping ..:\ well i can say the truth
yeah maybe nothing is helping but i don't fight even for the little time left
and i can't help myself ..& always end up stuck in everything ..
i only wish for once in my life ..to finish all the work early ..and never be stuck again
if i did that...it'll be amazing & awesome

i'll feel better and like i did a great thing ..but nothing is helping
or maybe i just can't help myself
it's tiring ...i'm tired & sick ..
wish to do more changes & be stronger..but nothing goes well ..it's not nothing ..it's mostly things don't go well ..or as i wish it to be
so i must work harder ..wake up more from this long sleep
i really want to change & do a lot ..
i really deeply want to ..more than any other thing
but why just i can't do it !!??!!!