Spring ~

Flowers Blooms in spring , i wish a flower blooms in my heart this spring ~ 
this is my wish for this spring ^_^
my Wishes for the winter came true ^^ Alhamdulilah ^^
i really want to meet .. i mean to know the person who will be my husband ^^ 
اعنى مجرد معرفة من هو يصبح الامر مريحاً أكتر 
لا يشغلنى الأمر كثيراً وانزعجت منذ يومين بسبب أحد اللقاءات العمياء 
كم أكرهها !! 
منذ عامين وانا اشتغل على نفسي ، على تطوير ذاتي وشخصي أكتر 
لا يهمني كثيراً ولا يشغلنى أى شئ 
لان لا بانشغالك بشئ ولا باستعجالك له سيقربه او يجعله يحدث خصوصا أمراً كهذا ليس بيد أحد غير الله 
كل شئ له توقيته المناسب 
ارجو ان يكون توقيتي المناسب قد اقترب 
ولكن إلى ذلك الحين وحتي يأتي ذلك ، أنا سأستمر وسأنشغل فقط بالعمل على تطوير نفسي وعقلى وذاتي 
الاصلاح منهم وتغيير نفسي للأفضل والعمل على الحفاظ على الجزء الديني وعلاقتى بالله على أفضل وضع ممكن 
انا لست شخصاً مثالياُ ولن أكون يوماً ما 
ولكن هناك العديد من الأمور التى يمكننا تغييرها والتى يجب أن تتغير حقاً
أحبك ربي ♥ 
ولك الحمد حمداً كثيراً طيباً مباركاً فيه على كل شئ ♥
 

things i wanted to say !

the things that were left unsaid !
i really wanted to say these words to him
really i understand what he was trying to say that day .. i got it
and i know it ..i don't disagree with him .
the problem for me that he thinks i'm kinda person ...not me really
i wanted to tell him Thank you for troubling yourself because of me
thanks for being a good person to me ..really i appreciate it
i know your intentions are pure & that you were really worried about me
thanks for all .. for standing by me , protecting me  and trying to help me ...^^
i feel like i'm bothering you with my stupidity , but someday all will be gone .
i wanted to tell you .. i'm not easy as i seem to be .. although i look like an idiot who can't help herself .. but in fact i'm one strong person ... i may not look like it ..but this is the truth
i'm not that kind , not that nice ...i never call myself nice ... i'm rude sometimes and can defend my self .. my words are like poison sometimes ...:\ ...
i've always set limits all my life with others .. i've never let anyone rest dealing with me
most people suffered from me ..setting boundaries and limits ..
no one ever dared to cross this & the few who did .. were hurt by me ..
i'm not an angel ... i'm a human after all .. i just don't want you to get the wrong idea of me then  you will  be shocked after getting to know me !!
i want to be just me , the way i'm ,, no one else  ^^
i wish you happiness from the deepest of my heart ♥