2010

this note was written at september ,13 , 2010
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2010
this year is already finished for me....yeah it is...but i'd like to say things about that year
2010 has been the worst year....yeah it is....and i admit it i've changed alot in the last few months
well i don't think the coming 3 monthes will have anything better than the left months ...
i knew many new things about me ...
also nothing will change ..... & also i've been hurted enough many times by the so called my close friend ...
i'm not sure if i'll be living to the next year or not...
i admit that i was angry most of the time....deeply hurted...i may say some stuipd words that may hurt anyone...
i'm sorry for that...i hope you forgive me.....i know being sorry or feeling guilty will not erase the guilt ...
this  whole year i really felt that i'm really a bad person ...:((...just because i may hurted people without even notice this
life is strange ..and have changed alot...so do i ....
there are many things i haven't know....never thought it could happen ..i was blinded..
this life waken me up ...from many things i didn't give it much attention..i learnt much
- all the time i feel bad..feel annoyed ..with no reason...that wt i say..because no one will ever understand..
feeling annoyed or bad or angry it has nothing to do with my friends...most of the time..it's because people
people in street ...people i hear about..,...,..etc...very strange people...that's it..
the way others thinking...the way they behave ..i just don't like the most of it...
the problem is that many people that day are no longer know the difference between the right & the wrong
that\s really Breaks my Heart !!...how people become that way ...!!
well i decided not to care for the people and stop thinking about this strange people i may hear about or just met them randomly
at any place ..i know i can't coz i always sympathize with all..:-S
- a note to freinds & people i know....
i'm not a good friend...and i won't ..so don't put much hopes on me...i'm a Family Girl...that's me
my Family is Number#1 ...always family will came 1st..... no hard feelings..i just don't like the people that getting gealous
because i'm not with them like i'm  with my family.. this will never be...
the ones that come like a family are few ...no one get it easily..that's for me...
if i said 1 day i'm going home..that mean i'm going home..i love my home... i don't love hanging out with any1 except family
i feel bad as long i'm far away of my home.....but still i can adapt to any place easily..
yes there are many people i can't trust...i don't trust any1 easily.....but i believe others easily..it's kinda stuipd
so i decided not to believe any1 easily...but it ends up believeing anything ..:(...
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