a few days ago mom told me about a friend was with me in school and her mother was celebrating that she got the 1st place in her class
i was sooo happy ^_^
but later when i stayed alone thinking ...i really couldn't do this once ...
i knew along time ago .. mom wanted this inside her ..but she never say it ..i know this ..
i'n not afraid of exams ..my problem is ii'm too lazy to study ..that's it ..
i'm not stupid ..i'm just lazy.. for example //in quizez ..i study 5 mintues b4 the quiz..and then go and solve it in 5 mintues...if i really studied i can do something ..but i can't do this as i believe studying is a waste of time ...and i don't like high grades ..well this will not say if i understand or not ...if i'm smart or not...specially learning here in this country....and a long talks in this ..maybe need a post for this ..i made along one a month ago in my head ..but no time to type ...
that's why i wanted to say sorry for mom & dad ..for not being the student they wanted me to be
they never really say anything ..and with every degrees ..hahahah.. mom get sad alittle ..and dad say Alhamdulilah and smile ..^_^ dad really feels me ..or maybe he feel the suffering i'm through ^_^ ...well Alhamdulilah ... :)..i'm grateful ..they never told me go to study or anything ..coz they believe in us that we know our duty ..and no matter wasting time we do in the end we will do it ..:)
this kind of trust is the best thing ...:) don't force the others ..and let them do it * mn nafsohom*
*انت من تقوم نفسك *
but i wanted to be a better student for them :)..to make them proud ..but i don't like the lights ..
when i was at the Math Olympics 5 years ago ..i gave up for some boy smart ..we scored the same mark 10\10 ..and i'm too lazy to go here & there .. and i was the only girl left in this level
even the teacher didn't believe it ..i was so ordinary student ..even no high degrees but this teacher believed in me :)..so i waas his 2nd choice after the 1st on the school.. ..which till now i can't believe i went to this ..it's a nice thing to know u r smart ..& meeting this boy smarter than me ...he was faster ...well i believe boys are smarter than girls anyway ...^_^
this really gave me more confidence and to believe in myself :) ..Alhamulilah :)..this was a great gift from Allah ..that changed my life after this :).. it was a miracle for the whole school
i think i need one now ^_^...
this was from the past now ..i'm no longer that smart .. everyday i become a little stupid :\..
but still i'm the best at expecting others & noticing everything :P ^_^..hahhahahah
what made me really sad that i even couldn't be like my father :)..
non of us ..:\.. but still we are a good daughters & sons in many other things but not this
anyway we can't have it all ..no one is ..u have this or this ...:)..
i was sooo happy ^_^
but later when i stayed alone thinking ...i really couldn't do this once ...
i knew along time ago .. mom wanted this inside her ..but she never say it ..i know this ..
i'n not afraid of exams ..my problem is ii'm too lazy to study ..that's it ..
i'm not stupid ..i'm just lazy.. for example //in quizez ..i study 5 mintues b4 the quiz..and then go and solve it in 5 mintues...if i really studied i can do something ..but i can't do this as i believe studying is a waste of time ...and i don't like high grades ..well this will not say if i understand or not ...if i'm smart or not...specially learning here in this country....and a long talks in this ..maybe need a post for this ..i made along one a month ago in my head ..but no time to type ...
that's why i wanted to say sorry for mom & dad ..for not being the student they wanted me to be
they never really say anything ..and with every degrees ..hahahah.. mom get sad alittle ..and dad say Alhamdulilah and smile ..^_^ dad really feels me ..or maybe he feel the suffering i'm through ^_^ ...well Alhamdulilah ... :)..i'm grateful ..they never told me go to study or anything ..coz they believe in us that we know our duty ..and no matter wasting time we do in the end we will do it ..:)
this kind of trust is the best thing ...:) don't force the others ..and let them do it * mn nafsohom*
*انت من تقوم نفسك *
but i wanted to be a better student for them :)..to make them proud ..but i don't like the lights ..
when i was at the Math Olympics 5 years ago ..i gave up for some boy smart ..we scored the same mark 10\10 ..and i'm too lazy to go here & there .. and i was the only girl left in this level
even the teacher didn't believe it ..i was so ordinary student ..even no high degrees but this teacher believed in me :)..so i waas his 2nd choice after the 1st on the school.. ..which till now i can't believe i went to this ..it's a nice thing to know u r smart ..& meeting this boy smarter than me ...he was faster ...well i believe boys are smarter than girls anyway ...^_^
this really gave me more confidence and to believe in myself :) ..Alhamulilah :)..this was a great gift from Allah ..that changed my life after this :).. it was a miracle for the whole school
i think i need one now ^_^...
this was from the past now ..i'm no longer that smart .. everyday i become a little stupid :\..
but still i'm the best at expecting others & noticing everything :P ^_^..hahhahahah
what made me really sad that i even couldn't be like my father :)..
non of us ..:\.. but still we are a good daughters & sons in many other things but not this
anyway we can't have it all ..no one is ..u have this or this ...:)..
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